Shaking off the dust

It's been 600 days since my last post. I started this blog as a way for my creative self to have a place to breathe, but somewhere between moving to a new house, a surprise pregnancy, and realizing that one of our children was special needs, I had to compartmentalize and this part of myself was put on hold. 

There were times in the last year and a half that I would miss writing, and other times I'd feel paralyzed by thoughts and fears about if no one wanted to hear my voice. If I'm completely honest with myself, I'm sure I've suffered a bit more than just undiagnosed "baby blues" over the last 3 years. That's a heck of a long time to feel like everything is rough around the edges. Is my head above water again? Maybe. I think it is. I feel that allowing myself to take back a part of something I truly love to do is going to help me continue on a healthy path - one where I start putting the oxygen mask on myself first and focusing on making my body healthier along with my mind and my spirit. I am going to work hard at not letting my melancholic tendencies take over so much (unless things just need to be done the right way, that is ha!).

Over the last several months a part of Psalm 139:14 has continually popped into my mind. I kept hearing in my mind "you are fearfully and wonderfully made". It's been on repeat in my mind and has ramped up over the last couple of weeks. I'd like to think of this as a gentle reminder that I must remember that I have a purpose and I'm made the way I am and it's beautiful. I hope you also know this and understand it deep down in your heart, especially if you're struggling with feeling significant or needed. I want you to know that God made you so take comfort in the fact that every part of you is loved and wanted. 

I hope through my writing again that I'm able to share with you a bit of my life - the good, the bad, and the ugly - and that through it I can share how no matter the number of times we trip and fall, there is grace.

So with much thought and a bit of inspiration from some friends (they don't know!), I'm shaking off the dust and jumping in again.